Don’t know what a follicle is? (I sure as hell didn’t know what is was pre-infertility treatment) Here is a definition from wisegeek.org: An ovarian follicle is a round cellular structure found in the ovaries that contains an egg, or oocyte, which matures inside the follicle and is eventually released during ovulation. It also secretes hormones that influence stages of the ovarian cycle. Human women are born with over a million ovarian follicles, each with the potential to release an egg for fertilization.
I’ll make this a quick post. I went to see the doc this morning for an ultrasound to see how my follies had grown over the past week. I had several small follicles on my right ovary that I didn’t get measurements for. I had a couple of small ones on my left ovary but I also had a larger one that was 17mm….just 1 mm away from 18! Yay! Also, my lining is at 7 and ideally it needs to be 10. They seemed pretty pleased about this but also worried that I had too many follicles that were big enough to be eggs. So then I had to wait again, wait for my blood test results to come in and for the nurse to call me. I was a nervous wreck until I got the call. My estrogen level was at 100, this told them that I only had one follicle that contained an egg, most likely the 17mm one. So since that lessened their fears of us having sextuplets we can continue this cycle! I will do 100IUs tonight and tomorrow night and go back in Monday morning for another ultrasound. And hopefully that follicle is at 18 or bigger and my other little follies haven’t grown much more. And hopefully my lining is a 10 or better and we can do the trigger shot and get this train a-moving! Finally, some good news!
And then I have been trying to fight the Negative Nancy deep down inside me, she is saying things like “what if your body doesn’t respond well and you have to cancel the cycle on Monday?” “What if you follow through with the cycle but still don’t get pregnant?” So many things to worry about, I am trying to just be happy but I also don’t want to be naive either. In the past, naivety got me nowhere but slapped in the face by bad news. Yes, Negative Nancy is a biotch and is trying to ruin the fun but Positive Patsy is thinking of baby names and how to decorate the nursery. Maybe I need both Nancy and Patsy in order to stay sane, if I think all negative I will get utterly depressed and if I think all positive I will be absolutely crushed by bad news.
My fellow female fertility bloggers, what do you think? How do you weigh the positive and negative? Am I getting ahead of myself to make plans for a baby that isn’t even in my uterus yet?