Life on the Wrong Side of Statistics

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I am 8 days into my Two Week Wait. That means I just have 6 more days of wondering and obsessive behaviors. I swear I really tried to be calm and all that, actually I feel really calm I am just not acting so. But I have an excuse, I swear! I was already bloated by the time I had my HcG shot last Monday and I had no other real symptoms until Saturday night. I had some slight stabbing pains in my lower right abdomen that radiated to the rest of my stomach and lower back. I really couldn’t move much for about 20 minutes until the pain subsided. I was for sure that I had a cyst that burst or ovarian torsion. But luckily this really strong pain gave way to moderate, constant cramping. I freaked out a bit and trepidatiously googled everything that could possibly be wrong. I googled “ectopic pregnancy”, “early miscarriage”, “chemical pregnancy”, “ovarian torsion”, “ovarian cysts” and “implantation cramping”…I even googled “constipation” and “bloating” out of the slight thought it may just be really horrible gas.

My doctor doesn’t have any decent after-hours protocols so I ended up speaking to a women’s health center at a hospital here in town that he forwards his calls to. No one had my chart so no one knew what to tell me. It was pretty upsetting for a bit. I just laid around the house all day Sunday and told myself I’d figure it out tomorrow. But hecks no, nothing is ever that easy. After calling his office every minute past 9am until 9:30am I realized they must be closed for MLK Day. So I must suffer one more day, suffer one more day while I have to work and still function. It is hard to describe the pain I have been having, just a constant, nagging pain that is impossible to comfort and I had a lot of trouble breathing at some points. Needless to say I also had thoughts that all of this had failed and was for absolutely nothing. I went home straight after work and slept. I haven’t slept so much in my life to be honest, I am exhausted. The combination of the knife-stabbing, 5-pound-in-a-week weight gain, bloating, constipation, fatigue, nausea and sore nipples are starting to really get to me. And my mind was playing a million different scenarios in my head (most of them negative).

First thing this morning I called the doctor’s office and had to leave a message with the secretary and wait. Wait again! My nurse called me not too long after and was able to chill me out with just a few words “this is all normal” and “it won’t affect a pregnancy”. Thank heavens. She went on to explain that I had Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS) and that I would just have to manage the symptoms. I wanted to cry when she told me that this could last a couple of weeks if I am pregnant (then my subconscious still manages to do a little happy baby dance). Basically, OHSS occurs after you have stimulated the ovaries with a follicle stimulating medication, because I had so much going on in the ovaries they became very large which can cause all the symptoms. Oh and no big deal but your ovaries can also leak into other parts of your body. After the HcG shot, they just got bigger from what I understand. She said they must be pressing on my diaphragm which is making it hard to breathe. She mentioned something about them being able to get to size of oranges. What the crap? She had told me about the possibility of ovarian torsion when she ordered me to limit my physical activity to just walking the dogs and going to work but I was oblivious to OHSS. She told me it would help to use an ice pack in 5 minute increments, drink lots of Gatorade and V8 and take Tylenol and Advil (I wasn’t even sure what meds I could take in case I am pregnant).

And once I think more about my odds of getting pregnant I start to get down on myself a little bit because really, how do I keep falling on the wrong side of statistics?

-There is a 20% chance of becoming pregnant each ovulatory cycle. No ovulation cycles here.

-Approximately 40% of couples conceive within the first 3 months of trying and 70% will conceive within the first 6 months. Nope.

-Up to 85% of couples will conceive within a year of trying. And we are the lucky other 15%.

-95% will conceive within 2 years. Screw you statistics.

-75% to 80% of women who take Clomid will ovulate. NOT!

So as you see I am on the complete opposite side of statistics. But here’s a little perspective, in my attempts to distract my mind from all things baby I watched the first couple of episodes of “Orange is the New Black” on Netflix and I heard an excellent quote from a character named Yoga Jones, she said:

“Work hard to make something as beautiful and meaningful as you can, and when you’re done, pack it in and know it was all temporary.”

Here’s to hoping that some of these symptoms stick around to confirm a pregnancy. And praying that I am on the right side of the statistics this go round and that all the rest was just temporary.

Cheers!

Kacy

  • There is about a 15-25% chance of becoming pregnant in each ovulatory cycle: But you need to do everything right and you shouldn’t have any medical issues and his sperm count should be fine.
  • Approximately 40% of couples who are starting out TTC will conceive during the first three months of trying, and about 70% of couples TTC will conceive during the first six months.
  • Up to 85% of couples will conceive within the first year of TTC. Your ability to conceive in any given cycle falls after age 30.

– See more at: http://www.babymed.com/getting-pregnant/what-are-the-odds-conceiving-conception#sthash.hhYu6jRC.dpuf

  • There is about a 15-25% chance of becoming pregnant in each ovulatory cycle: But you need to do everything right and you shouldn’t have any medical issues and his sperm count should be fine.
  • Approximately 40% of couples who are starting out TTC will conceive during the first three months of trying, and about 70% of couples TTC will conceive during the first six months.
  • Up to 85% of couples will conceive within the first year of TTC. Your ability to conceive in any given cycle falls after age 30.

– See more at: http://www.babymed.com/getting-pregnant/what-are-the-odds-conceiving-conception#sthash.hhYu6jRC.dpuf

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