Sorry again that I have been so bad about posting regularly. I have been down and out with a nasty sinus infection and an upper respiratory infection. I feel worse than I have felt in a long time…and it has been lingering on for weeks. I had to take a day off of work last week, I hate taking sick days…I’d much rather take off work for fun or for doctor’s appointments. I am still laid out in bed pretty much any time I’m not working. So these past two weeks I have been very thankful for the days I felt good enough to go to work, Hay Day (this game has been keeping me from going crazy) and today I am thankful to be able to watch the Oscar red carpet coverage. I have been incredibly BORED this weekend. There is only so much one can sleep.
We had our consultation appointment last Wednesday and needless to say I left surprised. Dr. B talked us OUT of doing IVF this go round. Here I thought we were going to discuss the timeline for IVF and all he kept saying were things like, “I don’t like the idea of you carrying twins because you are small”, “You’ll be laid up in bed for months before the birth if you have twins” and “I think you can get pregnant without IVF.” Now I feel a bit like I got ambushed by Dr. B and Josh and when we walked out of his office he told Mary Kathryn, “Josh and I decided to do another cycle with just drugs.” I must add that I love that Mary Kathryn said, “Oh YOU and JOSH decided this?”
But I guess I do agree with all of Dr. B’s points. One, he said I should try another timed intercourse cycle because I have only tried one, just because one failed doesn’t mean that this one won’t be successful. Two, he thinks my endometriosis will be fine because the doses of Follistim are so small as opposed to how much we would use if we were doing IVF. Three, we may have to wait until May to do an IVF cycle anyway so we may as well try this way this month. Four, he says that I will feel ten times worse during an IVF cycle because my ovaries will be even larger than they were last time. Lastly, he said I wouldn’t do well carrying twins and if we can get me pregnant this way then choosing not to be so aggressive will be good for me in the long run. Apparently women who do IVF usually end up having to go to more extreme measures to get pregnant again.
I did wheel and deal with him and told him I will try another TI cycle but only if we can do it this month. So I’m going to finish my period and start up birth control again until all my infection crud clears up. Then we will start the Follistim doses again. I expressed my concerns about why we chose not to do IUI last time, he says since Josh’s sperm count and motility was so great they didn’t think it was necessary. But to ease my mind he is testing his sperm again to be sure. Dr. B spent a lot of time talking to us about it this time, he dealt with me crying (I don’t know why I always cry during consultations) and he pinpointed exactly how I felt. He told me he knows I feel negative about it all because my body hasn’t worked how I’ve wanted it to and it’s easy to feel like I am defective and like things won’t work out for me, but he knows it will eventually.
So on to the next cycle. I’m always excited in the beginning of a cycle, I wasn’t expecting to be able to do one so soon. If we get pregnant this month it will be due in December. 🙂 I am always hopeful but still planning for IVF in the future just in case.