Happy Endings

Last Monday after we got the news that my body was defiant with us I sat down to watch the series finale of “How I Met Your Mother”. I already had so many mixed emotions pent up inside of me and the end of one of my favorite shows didn’t help me at all. And it ended in such a sad way, I will give away some spoilers here so if you don’t want to know then avert your eyes!

I had watched the main character, Ted, search for his soul mate for 9 seasons. I watched him date all the wrong women and get his heart broken dozens of times. But I continued watching because I loved seeing all the moments that lead him to be the man he needed to become in order to be perfect for the mother of his children. They briefly showed the love that they had, we got to see them have their children and then she gets sick and dies, DIES! I was so depressed, so depressed to know that we can be waiting forever for the stars to align ever so perfectly for us and that we can still end up disappointed. Even this beloved show had to slap me in the face and withhold my happy ending! I went to bed wondering if there are any happy endings in life. I ended up a teary mess and a ball of regret, anger and depression. Josh came to bed and held me until I was able to calm myself down enough to even breathe. I went to bed that night with a lot of doubt. But then I woke up to this note from the hubs the next morning:


If you don’t believe anything good can come out of such a crappy situation, think again. Think of this letter. This letter increased my love for Josh times a million when I didn’t even know I had the capacity to love someone more. And I realized that Josh is my happy ending, regardless of how long we get to be married, how long we both live or however many kids God decides to bless us with.

Oh and we decided to do IVF in June so I started my BC pills last week. I am still trying to process what the next few months has in store…

Best wishes,


8 thoughts on “Happy Endings

  1. Your husband is so wonderful! What a lovely note. And I am excited for you to start ivf in June. We are doing it now (on day 3 of stims) and it is both terrifying and exciting! Looking forward to following your journey!

    • Thank you! Yeah I guess I snagged me one of the good ones! I am mostly terrified of this IVF thing. I don’t know why I am all the sudden so scared of it. I am excited to read all about your experience. Good luck and lots of baby dust to you!

  2. That letter brought me to tears. I’m so glad you have such a supportive husband. It makes all the difference. Good luck in the coming months. I’m praying for you.

    • Thank you Sandie. We need lots and lots of prayers. I’m sorry it made you cry, hopefully they were happy tears. 🙂 Josh is a pretty amazing husband and I am very blessed to have him.

  3. well your husband IS one of the sweetest men I ever heard of 🙂 good luck for your IVF. Even though I don’t know you, this note is enough to tell me you are a couple who deserve to be parents!

    • Well thank you very much for saying that. I don’t know so much about myself but I know for certain that Josh will make an amazing father when the time comes.

    • By all means, blog about whatever you need to. It would make me feel so honored if you did! Thank you so much for all your support. It means more than you know!

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